I keep forgetting I have a blog lol

Well there is a lot that has happened since my last post lol, about 2 years worth. I have an amazing boyfriend,on January 1st we will have been together for 2 years!!! Can't say how amazing these past 2 years have been with him. We have had our hard times, but of course we make it through every time. He has given me the most wonderful son, Rylan Allan Largent. He was born on April 23, 2011. Almost an Easter baby! Little man will be 6 months old already this month. Addy turned 2 this year in August on the 12th. I love my little family, nothing could be better than being at home with them 24/7. We have also added yet another little addition to our family, we have a little pitbull puppy, his name is OB which is short for Oddball. So much has happened over the past 2 years I can't write it all down, but I have enjoyed most of it & I am thankful for all the new changes that have happened. Adding James & Rylan to my life has been a very big positive for me. By adding James & Rylan I have also gained James' family as my own. They are all wonderful people & I love them very much. I am so glad they were so accepting of me & Addy. I'm going to try & actually keep this thing updated as much as possible.

Updating

You try to bring me down

But in the end I'm the one standing tall
And you're down on your knees
Begging for forgiveness


This is unfinished, someday ill come up with the rest and finish it.

So it's almost Christmas, and I still have no idea what I want. Money is always nice, I could put that to good use. Not a whole lot has happened. I'm single, but I've decided to keep it that way for a little while, I want to work on myself a little bit before I get into another relationship. I don't mind going on dates though, that's always alot of fun. I will update more after Christmas, should be alot more happening then.
 

War

I can't seem to win this war
I've been fighting for so long
I don't even know what I'm fighting for
Should I give up and go home?
Or should I stay and fight some more?

Will this war ever end?
Will I ever know peace again?
Or is this war just starting to begin?
So many questions and no answers
Will I ever win this war?

Sensible

Everyday I'm still breathing you in
Memories of you invade my mind
Your scent lingers
I can still taste you on my lips
My skin crawls from your touch


i cant think of anything else to put in here, just felt like writing.

Update

I forgot I had one of these. So I have a 2.5 month old daughter named Adelyn. I love her more than anything. She's what keeps me going. Poor thing had to have 3 shots today. I love being back in Evanston, for some reason I really missed it. I'm so grateful to be back here with all of my friends and family. I love them all a whole lot. I'm so proud of myself, I applied for college and I got in. I'm taking online psychology classes at UoP, and I start on monday. I can't wait to be a psychologist, it's my dream job. Life has been nothing but great since I got back. I decided to break up with David, we just have changed and outgrown eachother. We're still friends though, and he plans on visiting Addy as much as he can. So I am currently dating Pat Ballinger. We're very happy together, and he loves Addy, which is great. Not much else to say. I'm finally happy with life now, only took me hmmm like 10 years.

me and my baby, i love her.

Once Again

So Hollow Inside
The Emptiness Consumes me
Once Again
To Feel The Pain
I Bare The Marks
Once Again
Heart Is Breaking
Wounds Are Ripped Open
Once Again